Posted Feb 14, 2013. Filed under . Leave a comment?
Today is the Day of Love. I don’t care how many people try and pass it off as a “Hallmark Holiday”, the true meaning of today in THIS day and age is SO MUCH MORE. (I feel a long rant coming on )
Today represents the LOVE you feel in your heart for anyone around you; whether you are single, or in a relationship, today should make you stop and think about the ones in your life. I know a couple of people who have or are about to LOSE their loved ones, be it a spouse, relative, child, or grandparent. I, myself, lost my beloved Grandma Joyce last July and it still hurts to think about what I could have done the day before it happened. I try not to idle on these feelings, and instead focus on the good things that have happened to me in a year since last February.
The biggest one being my crazy mare Willow! This horse IS the love of my life, and I know some people can’t understand the bond that I feel for my “hay burner”, “money pit”, “waste of pasture”. I have only one thing to say to you. I am SO SORRY you have never felt the deep, emotional and physical connection you can have with an animal that needs no words and I can’t even begin to explain.
I’ve had some ups and downs, and feel like I am still currently in the “down-switch” stage of my life. I know that without the compassion and (sometimes strained) patience of my parents I would not be able to have come this far. I don’t know how I will ever be able to repay you, both physically and mentallly, but I hope to be able to thank you today on the beginning of my journey.
My siblings, I love each and every one of them unconditionally, even if sometimes it feels like my younger sisters have me on a very conditional leash. I can’t thank my older sister enough for blessing this earth with her treasures and allowing me to spend time with the most wonderful little girls and boy. I don’t think she even understands just how I feel for them… Liam feels more like my nephew and I love him SO much, but I was so young still when the girls were growing up. I feel as if they are my own siblings as I grew up with them and hopefully had a tiny part to play in their life.
If I ever lost a single one of you, I would be so lost. Right now as I write this I feel as if I would not be able to function or think or live. But I know we would find a way, however painful each breath was to be away from that person.
For my other family, I know there are some who are estranged and I don’t see that changing in the near future. However bad things get, I still like to know that family’s family no matter what happened.
There are those (very few) whom I know are my soul family, even if not physical, my very best of friends who I cannot do without. Who’s the Mello to my Yello? My coconut (and sometimes turtle ) who I could never say goodbye to, even if you went psycho.
SO There you have it; my heart and soul bared on the Day of Love for all those I love and those who care to read. (Even though it’s more about just letting the words out of my mind than anything)